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What do I see?

Oh, what I do see!



Well, I have not

done so well

in my effort

to write one poem

a day.

Have I really failed again?



Certainly not!

I am finally

writing another poem

in the midst of

what would seem

to be one of the

most dreadful times

in my life,

one of the most

physically debilitating.



Yes. I am defying the odds

once more,

in the front of

the seemingly insurmountable.

I am enjoying my passions

of experiencing and creating

in various fields in the

world of fine art.



No. Not one poem

a day

as I had planned,

but I am composing music.

Then there are the lyrics

I recently wrote

to one composition.

And the artwork.

My work online

on many sites.

My numerous websites.



In between chemo treatments

and all which, comes along

with that. Even though

there has been nausea, pain

and weakness

I have found a way

to enjoy my food

and cook

some of my husbandâs

best meals

for him and I.

Of course

I sometimes

need him

to prep the veggies

for me

and things like that.

Or get me a glass

of ice water

now and then.



There is another glass of water

which stands before me.

At one time I would have seen

the glass as half empty.

Later I learned to see it half full.

These days I simply acknowledge

that the glass is half empty

and laugh about it. Hah!



Yes. In the midst of what

many would consider

one of the worst times in my life

I am enjoying my favorite passions

and preparing for the best times

of my life.



I can see that I have fallen

so far down

so many times

in my life,

and these to the point

it felt I could never again

find that bottom rung

of the ladder, with which

to begin

to climb up again

or the strength

to start.



Indeed I could dwell

upon these

tragic events

but I choose

to remember how many times

I did find that bottom rung

and begin to climb again

though there was no

evidence of strength

with which to do it.

Not only did I start to climb again,

but how I did begin to ascend

with great power

and reach the top

of such ladders

of great challenge

with great power and victory

through Christ Jesus

who has made me

more than a conqueror!

Praise be to his holy name forever!



I could have viewed

the ladders as greased

and that I should

altogether give up.

But when I think of the One

who strengthens me,

Christ Jesus,

who is limitless in power,

how can I?



One might consider

that thrice I have

crossed to the other side

of this life.

What of it?

One of those times

I was given a choice.

I was free to remain

with Christ Jesus

the lover of my soul

and my first love

with whom I so longed

to be with outside

this physical body

forever and ever.

Or, I was also free

to return to this side

of life

to my mortal body

and be about his business

once again.



Sometimes I have thought to myself,

if there was ever any insanity in me

it was in this,

that for some reason unknown to me

I decided to return to this life!



Yet, here am I in the midst of what

many would consider

one of the worst times in my life

I am enjoying my favorite passions

and preparing for the best times

of my life.



I could choose to remember

the momentary death

I experienced in labor

with my daughter --

the great pain -- and grief we both suffered

through physical illness and other tragedies

which robbed my daughter

of part of her childhood

and me of a portion of motherhood

for a time,

but I decided to focus

on what I see ahead.

Oh, what I see ahead!



I see three more children

I will bear though I am

now fifty-two

with my belly swollen

twice only.

And how beautiful

they are!

One boy and two girls!

And who knows,

I may raise many

more children

than this.



Recently, my husband

came into the room

where I was working

and began to speak

of the son we know

we are going to have

and immediately I saw

something about which,

I could not keep silent

and suddenly exclaimed,

âLook, honey!â

There on the wall

we both saw

a rainbow

of three colors,

red, blue, and green.

The rainbow started

on a tiny portion

of the ceiling

and ran down

to a figurine of three children

singing hymns

we purchased

in faith for our children.

The three bands

of the very vivid rainbow

were the same

as the colors

each child was wearing

on the figurine!



In the Spirit

I will bear many children

into the kingdom of God.



There are many other things

my Lord showed me himself

and also told me through

those who have prophesied

to me

about what is to be

in my life.

Great persecution and the loss

of all those I love

and then,

blessing, blessing, blessing!

This was prophesied three times

in one year

by three different people

at three different times.

The worst of this has

happened already.

So guess what I have

to look forward to?



Yes. Blessing, blessing, blessing!



Oh, I can not help

but be ecstatic

about what I see!



-- Marilyn Renee Monet



*** I just realized I finalized this poem (For some strange reason I happened to check the date on the computer. I donât even remember why!) and posted it for the first time tonight, on my daughter

s birthday! : )